Tuesday, December 25, 2018

Always in My Prayers.

Bismillah.

I was chit chatting with my husband today, about the one close friend that I have, that one close friend that out of nowhere, seems to avoid me & suddenly chose silence over conversation with me. It really hurts me till today to think about it, mainly because just a few months before that, we were close, closer than a few years before.

The wound in my heart gets deeper because I really can't figure out why she's avoiding me? It's kinda impossible & never does it cross my mind that this kind of situation will happen. However, I try to convince myself very hard that she must have her own reasons for doing that. And actually I do believe that she's currently battling against something and somehow she prefers to seclude herself from majority of her friends.

Well, actually that's not really what I wanna share in this post. Instead it's about the short conversation I had with my husband earlier today;

"She updated in her ig story that she's sick." I said.

"And you didn't say anything to her? No 'tanya khabar'? No 'get well soon'?" he asked.

"No. I am afraid she won't reply, and more afraid if my message will annoy her." I feel bad for having to answer this way.

"It's better if you show her that you care. She might be in a difficult phase of her life, and this is the time you are supposed to let her feel that you really care & she really matters to you," suggested him.

*silence*

"I have been in the phase where I was so down & at that time, there was only this one friend of mine that keeps contacting me though most of the time I just remained silent. Hardships usually tell us who's our real friend." He continued.

"But I am still afraid that she won't like it if she sees any messages from me. Of course I am dying to keep in touch with her, meeting her like we used to do before," I feel like crying while saying this.

"I understand your concern, but, it's not harmful to try to initiate the conversation first. Or at least make her feel you care. Regarding her response, it's up to her. You just do what you can." His words slowly enter deep into my heart.

"I will try. I will. InshaAllah."

Honestly, I never thought that I will still have friendship issues in this age (almost 32). Kinda funny but it's reality. As we grow older, some of the things just get more complicated and somehow it's hard for everyone to catch up with each and every friend. And sometimes, it's just the matter of timing, where certain right things might seem wrong when they're in not in the perfect timing.

Whatever it is. I think it's best for us to keep praying for our friends. Because perhaps we don't know the battle that they are having. It's of paramount importance that we try to put our emotions aside and think in a mature way about our friends. Do what we can do to help, even if it means that the only help we can offer is to pray sincerely for them in silence.





Tuesday, December 18, 2018

Big Bad Wolf 2018

Alhamdulillah tahun ini saya berkesempatan untuk mengunjungi pesta buku Big Bad Wolf (BBW) sebanyak 2 kali trip. Trip pertama pada preview day dan trip kedua pada Ahad lepas, 16 Disember. Sebenarnya saya tidak sangka akan diberi rezeki untuk dapat VIP pass untuk masuk sehari awal dari BBW dibuka untuk public.

Trip pertama, saya pergi bertiga sahaja dengan anak-anak. Dan niat di hati memang mahu fokus beli buku anak sahaja, terutamanya untuk anak sulung saya yang berumur 7 tahun. Untuk anak kedua yang baru berumur setahun, saya cuma belikan satu buku, kerana buku lain masih banyak (buku kakaknya). Untuk trip pertama, saya habiskan masa selama 1 jam 30 minit di sana. Tempoh tersebut agak pendek sebenarnya kerana saya hanya sempat cari buku anak-anak dan tidak sempat berlama-lama di bahagian buku dewasa.

Untuk trip kedua pula, saya ke sana dengan anak-anak serta ditemani seorang kawan. Alhamdulillah kali ini saya dapat fokus untuk beli buku sendiri kerana dari awal saya sudah beritahu pada anak bahawa saya tidak akan ke bahagian buku kanak-kanak untuk trip kali ini.

Sudah beberapa tahun sebenarnya saya tidak pergi ke BBW, salah satu sebabnya ialah lokasi event tersebut yang agak jauh dari rumah, dan suami tidak berapa berminat untuk bersesak-sesak di pesta buku, suami lebih suka untuk beli di kedai buku. Jadi bila tahun ini saya berpeluang ke BBW sebanyak dua kali dan dapat beli buku-buku yang diingini, saya amat bersyukur & hargai peluang ini.

Kalau nak tahu, inilah kali pertama saya pergi ke BBW untuk mencari buku berkaitan bisnes. Bermakna, BBW saya yang terakhir saya pergi sebelum ini adalah pada tahun 2013, mungkin. Saya tidak berapa ingat. Kerana saya mula berbisnes pada tahun 2014. Tahun-tahun sebelum ini, saya ke BBW semata-mata untuk mencari buku parenting, novel, self help & buku kanak-kanak.

Apapun, doa saya agar semua buku yang saya beli kali ini, dapat memberi manfaat yang banyak dan berbaloi untuk kehidupan saya & orang lain. Tak penting cepat atau lambat habiskan semua buku tersebut, kerana yang lebih penting ialah, samada saya praktikkan ilmu yang ada dalam buku-buku tersebut atau tidak. Moga Allah permudahkan.

Jumpa tahun depan BBW, inshaAllah!

Trip pertama, 6 Disember 2018.

Trip kedua, 16 Disember 2018.

Buku-buku yang saya beli untuk diri sendiri dari BBW 2018.



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